State of Confusion
Over the past year, I’ve experienced some pretty exciting, and stressful life changes. I begun a new job, moved, endured the unraveling of relationships, explored new business ventures, and started a blog 😊. All these circumstances presented their own unique challenges, and benefits. And, while I am grateful for every circumstance of life (benefits of contentment), at times I still feel stuck as I grapple with mental confusion.
Now, granted there are some who battle mental confusion due to an underlying disease, but my confusion is more closely related to information overload, stress and sometimes fatigue. However, mental confusion can also be the result of feeling as if you are not connected to your purpose. Purposelessness is stressful and unfulfilling. While lying across my bed, the Holy Spirit led me to explore the remedy for purposelessness, and it was found in the book of Genesis.
In the Beginning
Although, Genesis is the story of how the world came into existence, the Holy spirit began to reveal to me another aspect of the story. An aspect I had never considered before. More specifically, I began to see how the creation story also related to the human psyche. For those of you who need a refresher, see Below😊:
“Now the earth was formless and empty, darkness covered the face of the watery depths, and the Spirit of God was hovering over the surface of the waters. Then God said, “Let there be light,” and there was light.” Genesis 1: 2-3
At the beginning, the earth was a giant gaseous ball of confusion. It had no function, and whenever there is no function, there is no purpose, and without purpose there is chaos. Confusion is defined as a lack of understanding, uncertainty, or the state of being bewildered. However, this confusion was disrupted when God spoke “Let there be light.” I found this fascinating, because God spoke light into existence even before he created or called forth the Son (that’s another discussion 😊). At any rate, this phrase “Let there be Light” began to take on new meaning to me. In other words, something in me, began to Illuminate.
The Origins of Light
Light is produced deep within the Suns core via a process known as Fusion. Fusion is an intense interaction between the nuclei of two atoms merging into a new element. This process creates a photon, the particles of light that are released from the sun. Interestingly, it takes 40,000 years for these particles to travel from the innermost core to the surface of the sun. Once, these light particles reach the sun’s surface, it takes 8 minutes for this illumination to travel 93 million miles to Earth….WOW!!!! (You can read more about this fascinating phenomenon here by NASA). But, how does this relate?? Hang with me.
The Sun is vital to life on earth. It provides us light during the day and is vital to completing many tasks. Also, Light is vital to establishing order. Truly, the Sun in my opinion is the most fascinating star. But, in a spiritual sense light is revelation. Light is Life. God, himself is Light (See 1 John 1:5). And, just as the sun is vital to our existence, so is revelation and enlightenment of God’s will and purpose for our lives.
The Greek word “Psyche” means life or soul. It is where we derive the word psychology, which is the study of human behavior. Our souls are at the CORE of who we are. It is the place where our will, thoughts and emotions dwell. I believe, we are whatever we allow our souls to interact with the most. Proverbs 23:7, says “As a man thinks, so is he.” And much like the Earth during its Genesis, our souls start out being empty and void. We are shaped by what we focus our Eye (Mind, Soul) on. “If your eye is good, your whole body will be full of light, but if your eye is bad, your whole body is full of darkness” (Matthew 6:22).
In other words, we do not function properly without the presence of the true source of Light. And, there is only One Light. Confusion is a result of walking in the dark. So, when I am confused, it’s a signal that there is darkness clouding my understanding, and I am disconnected from the Light. The Light is Jesus Christ. Furthermore, it is evidence that I have not fully put a matter under the Lord’s care.
Now, I truly believe I know my purpose in life. However, being more aware of your purpose doesn’t totally eradicate feelings of confusion if you are still unsure of the steps it takes to get there. Knowing your assignment in life means you need more direction and guidance on how to move towards your purpose.
Often the process it takes to close the gap between you and your destiny can be so intensely frustrating, that it causes information overload and discouragement. In addition, it can make you impatient. And, this is the state I found myself in.
Let There Be Light
In Genesis, the first command God spoke was “Let there be light.” Before he shaped and created the universe, he established light and it was very good. In parallel, before I can work or serve, light (understanding) needs to be established within me as well. Wisdom is the principal thing; Get wisdom and in all your getting get UNDERSTANDING. You can’t apply to your life what you don’t Understand (See Proverbs 4:5-7). In this, the Holy Spirit began to teach me to pray a very powerful prayer. And, I am honored to share it with you now.
So, if you are in a place of purpose confusion right now, or maybe you just need more clarity, and help with strategy formulation, then declare “Let there be light.” You don’t have to yell or scream it out loud. Unless, of course you feel the need to do so. Then, by ALL means, “LET THERE BE LIGHT!!!!!!!!!”
Inevitably, when there is light, there must also be OBEDIENCE.
In the past, I would shut down, and engage in self-defeating behavior as discussed in last week’s post. However, today I’m learning to PRESS pass this disorientation, and I gain success when I pray “Let there Be Light.” Granted, success may manifest by gaining more peace, more rest, and more faith. But you can be sure that he who begun a good work in you is faithful and just to complete it.
Just because you don’t yet see the full manifestation of the promise doesn’t mean there isn’t anything happening.
Consider again the origins of light. The light you see today, was produced 40,000 years ago! The moment you had that BRILLIANT idea, the moment you had that GLORIOUS desire, that was the moment GOD Fused with your SOUL and created Light! Don’t despise the day of your small beginnings, God is Producing Light and Abundance in you. And, it’s ALL for JESUS! All for HIS Namesake, not ours (See Psalm 23). God wants to see his goodness manifested in your life even more than You do! So, don’t let grief and despair overtake you! So, go ahead and Kiss the SONshine, and LET THERE BE LIGHT!